Never Alone

spiritual musing

“No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.” John 15:15

“And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him. You know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.” John 14:16–17

As a person with disabilities (hearing and visually impaired), communication can be challenging. These, I suppose, could be the reason why I chose to be a loner with a few friends. For a long time, I was good with this.

Now that I’m middle-aged, I find that I’m craving fellowship with people, especially with other older females. I find however, that it’s much more difficult to make new friends at this age than when I was younger, hence leading me to feel quite lonely at times.

It doesn’t help when I also have social anxiety.

I would get frustrated because I keep hoping that someone would initiate a friendship with me, but no one ever has.

After my heart attack, after I reconciled with God, I realized that He had been pursuing me for years. He desired to establish a close relationship with me. I just never reciprocated due to my anger towards Him.

The Scripture is full of examples of God pursuing us to be close to us. I just never saw it in this light before. More like, I’ve chosen not to see it.

Jesus looks to His own not as servants, but as friends made possible through the Holy Spirit within us.

As believers, there may be days when we feel lonely, but remember, we are never alone for we have His Presence within us.